I have said it before, and I feel the need to reiterate: my life is a constant spiral of stress. Stress is my normal, actually. When I'm not stressed, I worry about that too. I function pretty well, actually, but this week is just burning me out.
It goes in cycles.
Week 1: O.M.G. I have so much to do. Apply to grad school. Do it! Now! Wait, that costs $100. Where will I get $100?! Okay okay we'll figure it out. Bust out the savings. Eat ramen. GO GET YOUR FINGERPRINTING DONE. That costs money too. No worries, just do some baking. OMG Baking is messy! My kitchen is thrashed! I hate life!
Week 2: Pssh, whatever. Who needs grad school? I could spend the rest of my life on this sofa with this cat and my cup of tea and be perfectly happy. I love everything, and everyone.
Week 3: WHY didn't I get my crap done last week? Now I have so much to do this week! Can I die from anxiety?! Must google that later. I need a smartphone so I can get the WebMD app! But that costs money! And I already need money for the CSETS! And the grad school app! And the fingerprinting! Why didn't Nick take out the trash yesterday? Doesn't he realize that ALL I can think about is the trash piling up in there?! Where's my melatonin?
Week 4: Nothing matters except my husband and me. We're fine. Life is beautiful. We should get some kind of award for being awesome at life.
And that, my dears, is a typical month for me.
Sometimes I worry that I expose far too much of my crazy on the interwebs, and then I post anyway. I should change my URL.
Bonus points if you totally understand my posting title. :)
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Oh Patty, I love you so much. And your life makes me really, REALLY tired. I read about all this stuff you have going on and I just don't know how you do it all. I seriously don't.
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